Having a truly awful day. Have agreed to make appt with gp to tell her about eating issues at request of T. I think she just wants to pass me on to someone else/free herself of any responsibility if anything happens to me. She says my life is in danger so it is her ethical duty to refer me. I can't do it. I know the secretaries and receptionists and they will all have access to my notes. What should I do? Have had day with H to try to discuss issues. A disaster. We sat in silence through lunch. It is hopeless. He hates me. I have no one. T said that yesterday but she won't respond to my texts or emails because it is her boundary and for my own good. She thinks I want support from parents & husband - well yes that would be nice but it ain't gonna happen so reach out to her instead. My life is such a mess. I feel terrible. I can't go on like this. Sorry but I need to vent.