Hi Bailey,

You described me to a T! I just got DXed in December and am on the rollercoaster of denial. One day I agree with the DX, and the next I don't. I too am having trouble figuring out what is manic and what is normal, but it is getting a little easier to tell the difference. I am on my 3rd round of drug combinations and am extremely frustrated. I started on Lithium and Seroquel, well I got toxic amounts of lithium and had to quit that. Then my pdoc put me on depakote, lexapro and the seroquel (whicH) I am still taking by the way). I got the dreaded "rash" on depakote and she took me off of that and lexapro, because the lex was making me more manic. So NOW, I am on lamictal and 400 seroquel, we will see. So, you may have to be patient, which is almost impossble for me!! Keep coming back here and remember, no one here will "judge" you. You are one of us!! Take care and good luck.

Michelle