The problem with going off the diet is for a lot of foods I avoid, I would get very sick. For other foods, I may not get physically ill, but I feel even guiltier about it. It really is easier for me to just eat before or after on my own if it's going to be a problem.

Trippin2.0- The guy that I referred to as the one I went on a "date" with, I did know him from something else. And for all I know, it wasn't even a date to begin with. I usually can't tell for sure and I'm just going off of what people more knowledgable on the subject tell me. It's just that we don't live all that close to each other, so seeing each other all the time (in order to become friends) probably isn't going to happen.

Another thing…and I'm not disagreeing with you on the friends first deal, but in the time it would take me to become friends with a single guy, he's going to find someone else. That's if I can become friends with a single guy. The only guys that have been open about being friends with me are already married/in a relationship or just came out of a relationship with one of my female friends. It may be a U.S. culture thing for all I know, but I'm not the sort of person a single guy is going to become friends with because most of them seem to choose female friends based on whether or not they want to have sex with them, not whether or not they would actually be compatible as friends. And so, for some reason I don't understand (maybe my aversion to touch), I'm not desirable in that department, so I pretty much have zero chance of being friends with a guy unless he's in a long term relationship (and will actually choose friends based on who would be a good friend instead of who they want to sleep with).

RichardBrooks- I've never been diagnosed with having Asperger's or anything like that, but then again doctors never really tell me my psychological diagnosis anyway, so who knows—maybe a doctor did at some point but didn't tell me because I didn't ask. I would have never known what my official depression and anxiety diagnosis was because I didn't ask right away—I was just put on corresponding pills and the diagnosis fit so I just assumed I had something like that.

But whether or not I have something like that, I don't seem to be able to communicate needs. Maybe physical needs, but I usually didn't have to with my Mom. I would just walk in the room and she would know I was hungry because of how long ago it was since I ate last. Either that or it was the thought of "Why else would I be talking to her?" Who knows.

The point is, I don't feel like I can communicate needs because I feel guilty about even having the basic needs, like having to eat. So how am I really going to ask for something beyond that?