I just wonder if maybe I wasn't meant to have more than friends (not like I'm complaining about actually having friends who don't seem to mind me being around, mind you). A lot of my needs will never be met that way, but it isn't like they ever really were. So you'd think I'd just be used to it by now. Or I would have found some other way to get those needs met, but unfortunately not. Imagining getting my needs met is (obviously) not the same.