I felt the same for many many many years. I still get that feeling often, but now I am able to keep fighting through it instead of giving in.

I can tell you that it feels awkward at first, when you get out there and I keep making mistakes. Remember these people we are seeing being "perfect at soicalizing" already went through this step of awkwardness, that is why they seem so good at it plus some people have this skill at birth. I think I will always be a little awkward, but the more I have been putting myself out there the easier it gets. I an taking it slow, I used to not even be able to post on message fourms without huge anxiety and checking my message 500 times, and often deleting it.

Is there anything in your life that could be causing you this anxiety?