I'm not as good with words as the people who have already replied to you but I just wanted to say I think I know how you feel...everyone I know teases me for being a depressed emo kid (despite the fact I'm 22!) and no matter how many times I tell them I don't find it funny, that I've had problems with depression, anxiety etc since before emo was even a "thing" they just laugh at me and tell me to go and cut myself...very helpful as you can imagine

Thats why I like it here, people listen and take me seriously. I'm sorry you're thinking of leaving, you have always seemed like an important person here to me