Hello Psyclox
I am very sorry that you are hurting this badly. I hope tings get better for you soon. I hope if you have a Dr and therapist that you will let them help you diring this rough time you are having. I am going to leave you 2 hotline nu,bers tocall in case you need to talk to someone in person 1-800-273-TALK and 1-800-DONT-CUT. they are both available 24/7. you are welcome to PM anytime, if you would like to talk. Take Care Soidhonia