Hello and welcomte to Psych central.
Everyone else has left you so many good suggestions, to think about. I hope the best for you. There is help out there if you need professional help that is affordable, therapy is very comforting and needful at times to help you get through loss and pain. I hope you really try to get involved with some positive things at your school, loss is hard but therapy can help a lot in geting things together and making tings go smoother in your life. Take care Soidhonia