My T sent me an email suggestion about this:

Could you maybe consider a letter from yourself. That is: a letter from you when you are "feeling better." Yes, of course you would know what it says in advance...but still. If you are ever in a life-threatening emergency, I continue to hope that you will consider calling 911. I know you have not agreed with this in the past, but it is a wise option if the going gets too tough.

I cant even think of something nice to write to myself. All I see in my head is a not to myself to just do it already and end this ********.