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Originally Posted by The_little_didgee
I see my psychiatrist in one of the local ACTT offices. When she did my assessment she did it without accessing my previous records. She actually respected my refusal to sign for my records, which was a big surprise since most of the clients she works with have severe and persist mental illness. Despite my history of psychosis and her claim that I don't have a PD, it doesn't matter, because it is deeply ingrained in my soul. No matter how many times she tells me I don't have a PD, it doesn't change my feelings at all or make me feel any better about my past.
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Do you think that part of it is being hurt by people we trust...I mean as a kid we worshipped our docs always drawing the best pics for their walls etc so you come to expect they are people who genuinely care and then at least with pdocs you find this odd reality that can be quite divergent from that....it's like a breach of trust or something...I still wonder why he sent me to inpatient...like didn't he know a part of me would die there? I mean there is this huge dichotomy between people that actually like you and those that would sell you out if you say the wrong thing....and in your case it's an even greater betrayal because your pdoc was wrong and you trusted him/her and internalized it.