comeclarity, I read your post and I have a surprising amount of things in common with you. I do go into little fantasy worlds where I imagine myself being normal or better than normal and having fun. I also have difficulty engaging in conversation. I also try to always make others happy, even people I don't like sometimes. I want everyone to like me even if I don't like them (well there are people I truly hate and don't care about either way). Weirdly enough, my family doesn't have a history of mental disorders that I know of.

Thanks for all of the replies. I don't know what I'm going to do yet. I'll probably be lonely and screwed up at least until the end of college, unless a miracle happens.