I actually called 911 about my husband when I was afraid I wouldn't get to him fast enough. The paramedics were kind and gentle with him. He didn't lose any rights as he decided it was best to voluntarily admit himself to the hospital. He was not reduced to shame. Being able to access that help for him was truly life-saving.

If you cannot call for help from authorities, do you have a close friend, family member, clergy, someone you could ask to take you to the hospital for help? That might feel safer to you.

You can call a taxi to take you to the hospital as another option.

You do have options. What you have to resolve to do is actually see those options and implement them. At least keep 911 on you list as an option if the steps before it don't work for you. Keep your options open.