Wow pix, sounds like you're dissociating, have you done that before? It can be really scary and confusing. I've gone through chunks of that, days at a time, mostly hours though. I have this from PTSD and have suffered horribly for years with this. My Pdoc upped my antidepressant and it really helped with the dissacotiation stuff. It's not gone completely but its way better.......

You're not alone, you're trying to heal and that means sometimes things are worse and dark and we go backwards five steps before we go forward one.

Don't be so hard on yourself, but do keep tabs on that dissotiation bit, it can foster that yuk feeling you're already having, not to mention lead you astray and make you confused.
Take care of yourself!!