I can really relate to your post. I have reached out recently and it feels really weird. I haven't had my needs met and I think she is hoping I can do it on my own? But it's so hard. I want more not less which is why I reached out. I'm all over the place and transferring these feelings to friends- and pushing/pulling everyone, convinced they all hate me now.i have never felt so alone and out of control. I wish you all the best, your T sounds caring and I hope you get the support you need.