Have you ever because of limited money, had to prioritize getting something like a gift for yourself over paying for a therapy session? Round about Christmas time I saw something on ebay, and my immediate thought was " I have to get this" but it would mean delaying paying the T for a few weeks. I decided to email the T I have spent the money and to cancel the session. She wasn't too happy, not so much about the money, but she has to pay for the room to make time to see me. I told her I'd pay for the session whether I went or not at a later date so she wouldn't be short changed.

She suggested for me to come along for free and pay her in a few weeks for this session. Whilst in session she was nice, but she seemed to be hurt by what I had done. She said " I suppose you chose over buying that item over me" she then gulped and looked down in the floor then said " but I suppose it means you trust me that you know I would understand in letting you pay the money later".

I guess in that moment the gift to myself felt more rewarding then then the psychotherapy or the T. I still owe the money to the T and will be squaring her up this week coming.