Yesterday I met the new t, in my first transition phase, of course my current t was present, I know I am whining about the same thing, and for that I apologize, but I need to vent through here.

I usually go by first impressions in therapy and in real life, and I know its not good sometimes, but I am working on it. When I met t1, after the end of session or even 15 minutes of checking her out and getting a feel for her, I felt some sort of connection or something pleasant going on, something that told me ok, I can come back next week.

With t 2, although I was sad about t1, after my first session with t2 I also felt a connection, I felt it was going to be alright, I felt a sense of safety, and she asked if I will see her next week, and I said yes, I was comfortable with it, yet still missing t1.

With t3 after spending a whole session with her and my current t , and with the new t interacting with me, and telling me everything was going to be ok, and that she was looking foward to working with me. I just didnt feel a damn thing, I even looked at her in the eyes for a moment, to see if i needed to do that to find a brief connection.

I felt no connection, she seems so soft spoken and gentle, I just dont know. I will be fair, and evaluate the session more when we are both together alone, maybe she has another style in her own office by herself, I surely hope so. I find myself to be not liking the to soft spoken gentle smiley type of therapist.

I like a real person of course supportive humorous and just to tell it like it is, withing boundaries, yet caring and nurturing.