I hope your girl can be a comfort to you and that your friends stay close and are there for you. It's so important to feel the love of friends when you are in your darkest days. Do you have a good T? That would be really helpful to have one see you through this traumatic time. I hope the doctors can help you. Keep pushing to find the answers for yourself. I don't know much about being on drugs but perhaps your hallucinations now have something to do with taking them in the past? You need a good evaluation on that to find the cause. I do hope that people treat you with the kindness you deserve.