omg I JUST noticed I feel this way around summer time. I had accused my husband of cheating and he had not been and I was so ashamed of myself all I could think of was how bad I was and I needed to be punished, humiliated, treated badly. So I started scratching my breasts as hard as I could during sex, and making him choke me. I wanted to be totally degraded and humiliated because I was so ashamed. Or I get really irritated or angry and twist my arm skin till it bruises. The other day I was so frustrated I decided to punish myself by putting a BUNCH of hot sauce on my food so my mouth would burn. I do it all the time...