Since yesterday's official diagnosis, I can post here. Right now I am emotionally drained. Last night I was begging my friend on Facebook to choose life when she didn't want it anymore. And today I was hugging a sobbing friend, telling her that I won't ever abandon her like everyone else. I think I may cry myself to sleep tonight because the thought of one of my closest friends is feeling so much hurt breaks my heart. If I lose her, I don't know what I'd do.