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Originally Posted by Questforinnerpeace
No support system, no family nearby. I have had to shut people out of my life because they say things that trigger me, and/or they end up hurting me. I therefore feel like I cannot trust anybody. The people I do latch onto, I put on a pedestal, and when they let me down, it nearly destroys me. I can't even talk to my mom on the phone because it leaves me feeling suicidal. My mom was never there for me as a child - I was neglected emotionally and abandoned in many ways.
I don't know how to get out of this funk. I feel like nobody cares. The only other people I know who can begin to understand the crushing pain I feel are Borderlines too, and they are in no position to help because they're always in a crisis too. Please, please, please, I just need somebody to comfort me and help me through this. I just need some friends. I am so broken. My life is constant agony. I cry alone each day. I alternate between periods of telling myself I don't need anybody, or else sobbing because I have nobody who cares. If one more person tells me an "easy fix" to my problems, I'm going to scream.  |
Hi. Reading your post really reminds me of how I often feel. I haven't been a member here for very long at all, but what I can honestly tell you is this place is full of supportive people who really do care. I do the same thing. I'm always telling myself I don't need anybody else. The truth is, I do need the care and support of others. I think we all do. I know it isn't easy, but try to let people in and allow yourself to pursue new friendships. Hey, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always around and I would be more than happy to listen. You aren't alone in your fight. Sometimes, just talking about everything can bring a bit of peace and calm. I hope things begin to look up soon for you, I really do. There is no quick fix. Just try to take even the smallest of positives and build upon them. Things won't always be this way. Feel better soon!
