I do want to quit, quite often. But then that would mean walking away from her, and that is just as painful (or even moreso) than sticking it out. I also know it's not going to fix my problems to run away, and that the problem will just reappear in new situations.

But geez, it does scare me so much. And makes me so afraid that she will eventually get tired of me and my problems, and will hate me. She insists that I am not "too much" for her and that she doesn't struggle to think positively of me. But my past and my experiences make all this so much more difficult.

I am glad that I'm not the only one.