I felt so frustrated with myself after my therapy session yesterday, about not letting people in and not telling my dr about my anxiety, that I ended up calling and leaving a message on the nurses line ask if me overdosing before surgery could be the cause for my complications. I never have told her this information, and then in a state of panic I ended up leaving a message confessing what I did. I said she didn't have to call me back yesterday or if she wanted me to come in to talk about it, I would. I don't know what I was thinking. It's too late to turn back, and now I'm sick to my stomach about the reaction and what she'll say and facing her after confessing that secret.