So very sorry for your loss. Nothing hurts like the loss of a loved one. Within the last 12 years, I've lost my mother, father and my stepfather, so I too can empathize with your situation. I think about my parents at least once a day, still to this present time. You've come to a place where you'll find compassion and people who have similar sadness in their lives, even if it's not entirely the same as your situation. My thoughts and prayers are with you in this difficult time. May God Bless you.