Doctor put me on Paxil today. I am hoping that this will help me. I have been feeling so down, like I have lumps of blah in my tummy. It was so hard to go to the dr. today I was so afraid I was just going to break down and start sobbing. Hubby hasn't been too supportive, no sympathy at all. Sometimes I wish I hadn't insisted that we go to counseling. I want our marriage to work, but I guess I just wanted an easy fix. I am so afraid that I may lose a part of me on these meds. I do like my self.......jeez I have been through hell and back and made it! I don't want to lose that. I have to go and pick up my dad tomorrow in another state.........wish i could just crawl into a hole until these meds start to work. I also wish hubby would grown into a compassionate human but I don't think my meds are going to help that. I am also afraid......that I may finally have the strength to call it quits on the marriage! I don't want that........but who knows what I will do? jeez this is scary..........