Been doing my best to repress my ‘depression’, convince myself that things are improving… but they really aren’t. I feel guilt though for feeling the way I do and that’s one of the main issues that I’ve had… I’ve stummed up over the last month or so mostly for the benefit of those I care about.

It’s been leaking out in anger though and that can’t be good or helpful for them.

Over the last few weeks I’ve been viewing here and at times posting and though this is a lovely community for helping those who have only just begun to post… for those who are long term it does become a bit self serving and I recognise and appreciate that.

I had felt that I’d met ‘new’ friends who I could chat with and feel at ease talking to (for the simple factor of sharing a common problem and knowing we wouldn’t be judged for it)… but that withered and died… perhaps for the above ‘self serving’ factor… I don’t know :shrug:

As such, I’m giving into the stark truth that facing this is something that is to be done alone and so I just shall

Thanks to those special few that were a life line when I first started here and you do do a great job… I do regret that an e-friendship could not develop past those initial days, but that’s life and it probably was something to do with my attitude and outlook… I try to be gentle and helpful, but I can pin point certain times I may have screwed up as it were haha.

All the best and I hope everyone finds some peace as they travel this dark part of their live