Ah who knows. I just know that regardless he would never just come out and say it. If he even was feeling that way.

He was a great guy. Just a coward. Skittish when it came to commitment I guess (though I never actually asked or pushed besides that one time I asked what he saw in our future. Foolish after all those years eh? :/

I moved to Preston to study for two years (which he was more confident about than I was. Telling his friends how his grandparents had spent a while only communicating through letters)
He is moving back to Scotland in April. But I will not be seeking him out. As I have done since the break. I was so tired of fighting for what was important to me. Just once, I want to be fought for. But it still hurts like hell. It sounds big headed but I find it hard that he could leave like that. I loved unconditionally and gave so much. Without actually wanting anything in return besides a cuddle.

Meh.