*****TRIGGET WARNING IN THIS POST*****

did this over the summer. With Prozac, incidentally. It was the worst thing I've ever done. For a week it was fantastic, I had so much energy and felt soooo much better. I went running in the park, hiking, swinging on swings. But it turned on me. It was the worst thing I've ever done, the sickest I've ever been. I became so irritable that I would fly into a rage at any little thing. I began to believe that I was no longer in control of my mind. I thought there was an alien or some other being controlling my thoughts, implanting thoughts In my head. I became mixed - the being started telling me to kill myself, that my son and husband would be better without me. I began to hear voices calling my name. I began to see images of myself dying, hurting myself. They would haunt me all day. I was afraid of being alone with my son. I was afraid I would hurt him because I was so irritable. after a couple of weeks I cut myself so badly I needed stitches. I ended up hospitalized because my husband threatened to call the cops if I didn't go voluntarily. He had the phone in his hand with 911 dialed just waiting to preSs call.

I was in the hospit for nine days and missed the first three days of work. I could have died when I hurt myself. I've never been that psychotic before. It is actually all documented here on this forum....I made a lot of crazy rambling posts. It is SO DANGEROUS to do this. You can easily tip the scales into mania even if you've never been fully manic before. Consider this a warning. I know the feeling of wanting the hypomania. In Fact despite what I went through I am finding myself wishing I had some anti depressants now to get me out of a depression that is creeping up on me. But If I do it again there's no telling what could happen. I could die before my husband decides to commit me. I could lose my job because of the crazy things I would be likely to do. I can't take that chance.

BE CAREFUL wih messing with meds. You don't know where it could take you. I know hypo is fun but mania is NOT.