If e-friendships did not develop and flourish, it certainly wasn't because of you. You're a gem of a forumer, ToeJam.
In the end, though, you are correct. We each have this . . . illness, and each faces it personally no matter the size or effectiveness of one's support system.
Do what you need to maximize your chances for overcoming what you face.
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.