Hi Poppy...
Sorry to hear you feel at your worst. I have seen myself there where all I see is the dark tunnel. Let me tell you I told myself that I couldn't do it alone and started from there.
I am going on my second year of therapy sessions and regular meds and yes there are times I have hit a plateau but with the help of my docs I have found the right meds and dosage for me. I have been good the past month.
Last year was terrible for me...but looking forward to a better year! I started by giving myself a new look and feel good about myself. I believe this is a big plus on making ourselves feel better despite gender.
I hope you see the light shining! Just know that you are not alone!
Dee
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