Goodness. I'm so sorry about your lack of choices for a doc. Perhaps you could find one and go private pay? For example: if you saw Dr. Crappy once a month (who accepts your insurance but doesn't listen), maybe you could see a doc who isn't on your insurance but will work with you once every three months as a private pay? When I didn't have insurance pdoc charged $100/visit and tdoc gave me a discount of $60/visit. If your copay is usually. $30/visit, if you can find someone who works with you and you could go once every three months?

Just a thought. You're probably just looking for support but I remember never considering a non-par dr when I had insurance. Not such a big deal to go to "whoever" participates for a cold or broken bone, but not the case with mental health. Sometimes we have to think outside the box.