Yep, I react badly to any sign from my T that he cares. He ended an email before saying that he was looking forward to the day we were meeing (I'd emailed about something I was upset over). And I responded to him saying that with "Can you STOP saying stuff like that? It's bulls***!"
I'm fully aware that for myself, when someone else starts to show they care, I then go "ok, fairly soon they're going to know me better and then they will stop caring and they'll leave" or "Ok, so this person cares... but it's because I'm fulfilling whatever role it is that they want me to be. When I can't live up to that, they're going to stop caring and leave"
I have absolutely no faith that someone will stay around.
So when someone starts showing any caring, I just want to bolt.
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