I wish I hadn't deleted it all then…

But some of the targets were what I look like and my aspiring career/level of education. At the moment, I'm trying to get back into the university world and probably teach at a university. And I have glasses…so their response was, "Nice glasses, professor."

And another sent me a compliment about my hair and I thanked him and so we were talking and I said something about wondering why I was still awake (as it was 4 AM) and so since I stopped responding to his messages, he went back and said that he was just kidding, that [my hair] is fake. Yes, genius, my hair is dyed.

I've been having trouble saying anything at all since I feel anything I say is just ammo for ridicule because I'm just TOO different. This is also why I didn't have friends until recently when I found a group of people who didn't make me feel stupid for not being able to do basic tasks sometimes and where I didn't feel as afraid of saying the wrong thing etc.

I don't know what to say other than I'm most likely going back to college next fall. I can't think of anything else that wouldn't be a turnoff to someone that I hadn't have already met (or would meet) in real life. I probably should finish my business on there and delete it once and for all.