Thanks for the response. I don't think my t is the problem. This wavering back and forth from acceptance of DID to denial has been with me since the beginning. I am never sure if I want to leave therapy because I am avoiding or because I am uncertain about who I will become. I feel a little lost. I just sometimes don't know who I am. This feeling causes me anxiety, fear and confusion. Sometimes I just want to go back to not knowing. But that wasn't working either. So I get frozen and don't want to do anything. I just want to hide.