Asiablue-Yeah your probably right. I don't think he was trying to hurt me.
Hankster- I see what you are saying.
I'm just so upset. It's all I can think about. I couldn't sleep last night because I kept waking thinking about it crying.
Rzay4 - sounds like you have a very similar situation and you can relate. It does hurt a lot to lose someone that meant a lot to you.