Wooh, I sure do understand about everything you have said here - I actually could have written this myself it's so ' ME '. Whilst I was a nice ' thin ' person with a chronic ED 30 years ago, which carried on in it's own sweet (?????) way for many years, these days and much to my disgust - I'm a fat person with EDNOS! At my thinnest and diagnosed with anorexia, I received help in-patiend. These days because I'm a fat EDNOS and actually I'm doing much more ' dangerous ' things - nobody is in the slightest bit interested. Guess I understand, as I certainly do NOT look at deaths door, far far from it in fact. My metabolisim has been shot to pieces, I can live on very little, yet still stay fat, plus the psych meds I need have encouraged weight gainbut I can't go without them. These ED's and other symptoms of addiction to various substances etc ARE part of BPD. I'm so glad to hear that you have a place in a very good facility. Please do work it as it seems you DO have excellent reasons to get well for. HUGZZ. xxx