I applied to a large amount of colleges/universities. I believe I have applied to maybe 10-15. I wasn't expecting to hear bad news because I've always been such a great student... I guess, that is, before I got into high school. I will admit that my grades are terrible, just the absolute worst. Freshman year I really screwed up and I know it's all my fault because I was easily influenced by my "friends". But anyways, I really tried to pull my grades up so that they wouldn't affect me later on... Even so my math grades have always been horrible, I suck at math. So now that I've heard back from schools, so far I've gotten 5 rejection letters & every time I think about it I start to cry again... I feel so stupid and like such a disappointment to my parents, to myself. I feel like such a failure. I'm just too stupid to get into a decent school, is that it?

And it's not only that... I've been getting chastised and scolded by so many people lately, they keep asking me "well what are you planning to do!?" and it's just all too overwhelming. And on top of that what if I do get accepted in a school, I have no idea how i would pay for it. I could get a job but I that would barely cover anything...