While your past and who knows what else may have caused you to be who you are, you are what you are and only you can change it. No amounts of drugs or professional help can directly make that change for you. The best thing to do is to study yourself....hard, and read as much as you can about your problems as you can as well as treatments (my big one is mindfulness and meditation). Work on you as though your entire life depends on it...in many ways it does. If you don't see your issues clearly, there is no way you can change them....you can't change something you can't see, and change WILL come. It will be at a snail's pace and on many days you will go backwards more than forwards, but you WILL change if you are dead-set determined to do so.

It is the hardest thing I've ever done and infinitely frustrating and I often don't see much change, but others on this site can so that's a start. When I first started having issues about two years ago, I kept asking WHY...constantly asking WHY. I get most of the whys now....and I have to use that info to slowly but surely make effective change. You can too.