I'm right here with you, feels like I could have written that post myself, except I have cats not children. For me the pain goes away only when i distract myself by immersing myself into helping others. I volunteer at a homeless shelter. I guess it's good for me because I feel appreciated there. plus it helps me see there are a lot of people that have it worse than me. For now its working, not sure what spring will bring, but looking ahead 1 day is all I can handle. I sent you a friend request, too.