That's terrible to have a life without love Poppie, you don't know what your'e missing! I have loved since I was born, I loved my parents (who were abusive lol) I loved my siblings, I loved my friends throughout life, it just came natural. I'm sorry you can't love but like you said, you are recognizing this and analyzing yourself so hopefully you can learn to love my friend, its the fabric of time and space and I would rather not exist that be loveless. ((((Poppy Princess))))