Well I told my family and now I am wishing I didn't. Their response drove me to drink and to start burning again. So mad at myself for not listening to the advice people on here gave me. Even my T told me to seriously think about it. But I really thought I would be validated by them and they would understand. But that did not happen. They actually looked at me and said "I don't see it". So I gave them some papers I printed out about bpd. They read them and said "nope,you don't have that,you're just a little depressed". I was/am crushed. So now my secret is out and I still feel I am alone. It was so devastating I dreamed that I took a bunch of pills and went to their house to end it.
Glad I get to see my T later today.
Anyone who is thinking about telling family members about having bpd please please please think twice about doing so. And then don't do it.