I really think I need therapy. I keep going through episodes of depression that are closer and closer together. There's a specific cause - major feet problems requiring multiple surgeries - so I don't think just seeing my regular doc and throwing an AD on it will do any more good than a bandaid. I would really like to work with someone about my coping skills. And at this point, I've been living with my mother again for a year and think I need the therapy to deal with that joy. I know I'm overreacting to things she does, since all she has to do is make a noise in the room I'm in and I can flinch like I'm being attacked.

The issue for me is, in order to start therapy, I have to tell my parents, since with my feet I can't drive and I'm still on their health insurance. So what I've been trying to do is write myself a little script for how to tell my mother. I'm not ready to go through with it yet, but I feel like each day I get closer. Yesterday I was able to tell her that a behavior of hers was upsetting me. Of course, she just told me that no one else had problems with it, and I should just learn how to deal, but I feel like I was making progress by being able to tell her.

This is what I have so far, and feedback would be appreciated.

"I have something I need to tell you. I need you to not attack me about it, and I need you not to question why I need to make that request. I want to start therapy. I don't want you to be involved in that process. I will set everything up on my own, but I will need either you or Dad to drive me to and from."

On a separate note, any advice on finding a therapist with a specialization? I would ideally like to work with someone who specializes in chronic illness, since that's what the depression is mostly stemming from.

Becca