I have been very lonely trying to express my problems to the people around me and in my life. I can almost tell by how you are writing and what you have described that you will score high on the Autism scale. This is not a diagnosis, I have just worked with many children who have autism and can hear some of their voices in your writing. Communication is key with your family, remember you always win if you can keep from bringing your voice above normal speaking levels, and to use your resources to help explain Autism. Adult Services | Family Services | Autism Speaks I hope this link helps. Remember there are plenty of us out there on the Autism scale, I scored a 33.