hi, erin.......wow, you've been through a lot in a short time.

i realize it's going to be hard for you to talk to someone and tell them exactly how you feel......how about printing this post out and giving it to a therapist to read? a lot of us here have done that at different times. and a therapist to trained to ask the right questions, so that would be a good starting point for you to get some help.

i'm sorry that you suffer from major depression. i know exactly where you're coming from. i also have major depression and i take an anti-depressant that helps me feel better than i was feeling a year ago. there are a variety of different ADs that a doctor can choose from to prescribe for you.

let me assure you that you can get better. you can go to a therapist and talk and see a psychiatrist and get anti-depressant meds. and the sooner, the better.

please don't put it off. and keep me posted. pat