My T says that I dissociate in sessions, but I don't lose track of time or anything like that. So I'm not sure what she's referring to. I know that I'm still "me" while there. I sometimes feel like I change states, if that makes sense. There's me when I am irritable and angry, me when I'm depressed, me when I'm anxious, me when I'm overwhelmed. These aren't just feelings, but whole changes in thoughts, beliefs, responses, and choices. Faced with the same situation in two different "states", and I will have two different ways of thinking, feeling, and responding.

I know for a fact that I experience amnesia, derealization (living in a dream type of feeling), and depersonalization (outside my own body). I also feel separate from how I am feeling sometimes, like I have no feelings and am numb when I should have a lot of feelings. Or I will have strong feelings surrounding something one day, and have absolutely no feelings for it the next.

So my questions are:
1. What of this is normal and what is dissociation?
2. How can I make it stop? (Most "grounding" techniques I have learned make absolutely no difference.)