Day 4 total sobriety. I am trying again and I am very hopeful. I am using regret as a motivational tool- "Do you want to hurt everyone you love? Do you want to risk total humiliation tomorrow? Will you get into an accident or hurt yourself?" etc. Of course I am very motivated today. I only fear for tomorrow but the only options are to try to be sober, or to not try to be sober. Hope is only possible with at least trying, so I find its better than wasting away. Every time I fall I learn something. It is like holding my breath while I am underwater and then coming up for air trying to remember what I saw down there. Leaving breadcrumbs for myself to find my way back when I am lost. One day at a time