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Originally Posted by foreverlonely
Hi
You have explained exactly what I am dealing with.
Every therapy session my therapist wants to talk about this relationship.
My therapist has been the one keeping this relationship together. If it wasn't for him I would have ended my relationship as well.
I am in a severe depression as well and I feel I have nothing to offer my boyfriend. I feel gross and want him to find someone so much better.
But I also get so mad at things he does when we are apart during the week.
The usual splitting.
I don't know what to do either. He wants to stay with me through the depression as well.
This really doesn't help to hear only puts on more pressure.
Is it just the depression or is it the relationship
I don't know how to deal with this either. It is constantly on my mind. I have been constantly pushing my boyfriend away. He jokes if we are on or off every weekend. My therapist says I am being unkind to boyfriend with this behaviour. But I can t help it as I am so depressed.
I hope you find some clarity on your situation.  |
I'm sorry to hear you're dealing with this too. It's pretty torturous.
The only thing I've managed to do so far to help the situation is to just try and stop worrying about how things will end up and take things one day at a time. I know that I can't figure out how I'm going to feel when the depression lifts right now, so it's not productive to obsess about it constantly. This is easier said than done, I know, but I was pretty successful using this mindset over the weekend. I still didn't feel that "head over heels" feeling like I used to, but I was able to be around my boyfriend without feeling irritated, and even enjoy myself a bit. Nothing compared to how I used to feel, but at least I had a break from the 24/7 hell that has been my existence the last few months. Right now it's all about small victories....
I wish you the best!