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Originally Posted by HazelGirl
My T says that I dissociate in sessions, but I don't lose track of time or anything like that. So I'm not sure what she's referring to. I know that I'm still "me" while there. I sometimes feel like I change states, if that makes sense. There's me when I am irritable and angry, me when I'm depressed, me when I'm anxious, me when I'm overwhelmed. These aren't just feelings, but whole changes in thoughts, beliefs, responses, and choices. Faced with the same situation in two different "states", and I will have two different ways of thinking, feeling, and responding.
I know for a fact that I experience amnesia, derealization (living in a dream type of feeling), and depersonalization (outside my own body). I also feel separate from how I am feeling sometimes, like I have no feelings and am numb when I should have a lot of feelings. Or I will have strong feelings surrounding something one day, and have absolutely no feelings for it the next.
So my questions are:
1. What of this is normal and what is dissociation?
2. How can I make it stop? (Most "grounding" techniques I have learned make absolutely no difference.)
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your questions....
1 only your treatment provider can say what is normal dissociation and what is abnormal dissociation in you....
what I can tell you is......in general..... normal dissociation is sometimes feeling numb, spacey, times when a person feels they are just going through the motions with out feeling, times when they feel disconnected, or changed, times when they feel their world (environment and people around them) may feel changed in some way, too slow, too fast, ....
2 how do you make it stop...again only your treatment providers can say how .....you....can make it stop.....each person has their own ways, coping skills, tools if you will for how to make their dissociation symptoms settle down/go away/stop.....
for me what helps me is doing something physical like rowing my boat on the lake, taking a walk with my dogs, ....I also take medication to help with those dissociation symptoms that come from my depression, anxiety and work stress.
my suggestion keep working with your treatment providers, eventually you and your treatment providers will find what works for you.