It's me again. I realize my posts here have been sporadic, but I've been trying my best to cope with my issues without constant venting. Sometimes, things that I don't really have any solution for get too heavy and I can't take it anymore. One of those things being...why are women put in such a low place in this world? Some men say that women get all the breaks, even having the audacity to say that if you're hot your problems are apparently negated. This just makes me so sick, and I'm so tired of hearing this ignorant rhetoric. The comments I hear that are respectful are few and far between. And that's another thing. You say just one thing about one guy in particular, or something about men in general that seems to be a truth, INSTANT whining and immature name calling because they're so butt hurt, yet it's okay for them to say ANYTHING and everything about women and we're just supposed to take it. Even my aunt gives me the bleak outlook that men are horny beasts who can't control themselves from staring at women and who don't care about satisfying you sexually or emotionally. Oh, and that they need and want so much more respect than they give us.

Granted, my experience with guys has been limited to encounters online and what I've seen in my own family life. But it still seems far too common, and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being made out to be a bad person by men and women alike just because I point out my observations. It makes me just want to be a boy, but of course I'm criticized for that too. So basically, I've said all of this to ask: what pride is there in being a woman when you're constantly put down and squeezed into a tiny section of life where you belong, your appearance is scrutinized to the T while a man can be homely and unclean and still find love that will furthermore justify his raunchy habits? Why do some women still stand for this? Why should I have to worry about what men think I should do, that I basically either get to be myself or I get to have a boyfriend, but not both? And seriously, just how many people are really this ignorant? I haven't been in the world so I wouldn't know, and right now I don't want to be. I don't want to waste my time with anyone who has nothing better to do than ramble on about repetitive stereotypes and put others down to inflate the ego they don't deserve to have. My self esteem issues will likely never work themselves out if I can't even be proud or comfortable in my own female body.