Sorry about all that guys. I do have a legitimate Dx, but I just got so frustrated. My meds seemed to be helping me at first, but lately it seems like they've been making me worse; I can't get out of bed, even more so than b4 I started my meds. I've gained about 50 pounds backs--most of that's been in the last few months. Last couple of months, I've been more depressed and more suicidal than I had been in a long time, more on edge, and a total zombie. I never told my teenage daughter that I was on meds, and I don't know if she suspected anything. But the other night, we got into an arugment and she pointed out to me that I've been acting really different lately and asked if I was on something. Plus I've been frustrated and scared because I have been denied disability again; it's gone to court even, and been appealed but my attorney said it could take anywhere from six months to two years before we even know anything. And I cannot afford to wait that long. So, I was pretty much at my wits end when I spouted that off the other night. Sorry.