i think the best thing would be not to hate me for being so needy and posting a lot .i'm scared she will ask me if i want to continue and i will cave because i am terrified of starting over. but she may not because i e-mailed her about terminating .but i doubt she has read it .i think i will print out a copy to give her incase she didn't read it. it will be harder to change my mind knowing i have appointments with two other T's.